On the
first part of this blog I asked “what´s
your emotional background to discern you loved, liked, sexually used or
honestly cherished any person?” I was not aware that –most of our “logical”
responses- are governed by visceral emotions: I loved because I felt loved and
I hate for the same reason.
The kingdom
of God is an idealistic absolute we´re both tried and trained to be in. If I
was just a mental software, a soul
without human physical needs, what would I be in the need of?
Once rivalry,
disloyal competence and detested differences are removed, I think we could seek
another forms of love. I have no ways to know where it could be stopped but, if
you have gazed at the Scripture (Isa 11:7) what type of new relations “spiritualized”
humankind could build?
Probably
you wanted to have a tiger as friend –or a bear as your teddy bear- and you obviously
never could. Perhaps you´ve traveled a lot and you wanted to visit any planet
outside this single moon which wasn´t all days there to make your nights
shined.
Speculating
on geographic statistics new planets seem to be needed to relocate —in a
piece of land- those He has secretly chosen (Rev 7:9).
“For as the new
heavens and the new earth that I make shall remain before me, says
the LORD, so shall your offspring and your name remain.” (Isa 66:22)
If they´re
going to live happily after —during
1.000 years- they need something more special to do in longer days (Rev 21:23-25;
22:5). What about travelling farther than this single moon?
I wish
there were no weeds spoiling the
seeds I have already planted in my piece of land. I am thankful that —after a full
year- I can see my banana trees producing their 1st crop and, if I
had had more money, I would have bought more of them to plant so I could be
well fed. How come wouldn´t I share its
fruits if I had more than enough? (I have no place to keep them from degenerative
corruption).
In that blessed
promised future it will be nice to go to Israel several times a year (Exo 23:17,
34:23) yet Revelations made me think it could be more than that, as Isaiah also
said:
“From new moon to new moon, and from Sabbath to
Sabbath, all flesh shall come to worship
before me, declares the LORD.” (Isa 66:23)
If we went to
worship God, I´m childish assured we would go there with those pets we may have
as friends (and not as superstitious mascots).
“After all, the same fate awaits human beings and
animals alike. One dies just like the other. They are the same kind of
creature. A human being is no better off than an animal, because life has no
meaning for either.”
(Ecc 3:19)
We grew up
thinking we´re the best but –like a
child- I see the godhead is well concerned on them, along with our spiritual
nature.
“Let every
thing that hath breath praise Yah. Halleluyah.” (Psa 150:6)
“(…) The time
has come to reward your servants, the prophets, and all your people, all
who have reverence for you, great and small alike. The time has come to destroy those who destroy the
earth! ” (Rev 11:18)
I have no
idea if I will be chosen by a pussycat or a tiger, yet I´m certain they will be
a friendly safe blessing:
“They shall not hurt or destroy in all my holy
mountain; for the earth shall be full of
the knowledge of the LORD as the waters cover the sea.” (Isa 11:9; Hab 2:14)
Those who
hunted with a hawk will be disappointed: No more hunting of any flesh! No more
need to it.
Those
who sinned and created
malwares or viruses are left all out in painful shame:
“Outside are the dogs and sorcerers and the sexually
immoral and murderers and idolaters, and everyone who loves and practices
falsehood.” (Rev
22:15)
No more chance to prey on gullible people. (Mat 13:41-42)
It will be
nice to live in a place where God is honored, accessed —once in a while- to be
revered and known:
“And one
called to another and said: "Holy,
holy, holy is the LORD of hosts; the
whole earth is full of his glory!"” (Isa 6:3) [ESV]
Meanwhile that
day comes our sinful transgressions could be atoned for painstakingly:
“And he
touched my mouth and said: "Behold,
this has touched your lips; your
guilt is taken away, and your sin atoned for."” (Isa 6:7) [ESV]
I ought to
clean my mind and mouth. I must surrender to Him, the One who planned I lived another day… I´d better change!
However that
Bible you haven´t read was not written too cohesively to be understood by those
who read what we see: Let´s pray we get it all!
Paganized syncretism
Latin
Americans –as other nations- are ruled by functional idolaters. They were taught
religiously according to the syncretistic teachings their parents received from
their dads or moms (as I was) and, that should not cause a big astonishment,
since most of them gradually rejected God as Lord or leader: When you vote for
a man, you´re not vowing for a theocracy.
When they sung
their hymns or read their National Constitution,
or any article of their constitutional laws…
·
Were
they quoting a portion of the Scripture from the bottom of their hearts?
·
Have
you ever heard them saying –in a public speech: “Do not steal, do not covet,
do not kill… Do not sin!”
These men
are as thick as many thieves; these are as pagans as those Romans who ruled
Israel in the times of Jesus.
They
abandoned God and seldom practiced the Torah [Deut 17:18] since they decided to
be untouchable judges and invulnerable lawyers.
When these guys
say “love” they hate. When they said “Peace” they´re preparing to war, and this
is why I´m trying you to see what communism is: I don’t want to be ruled by
people like these!
Do you know
what country was really set free without
shedding blood?
If I took
literally what you could also read through those golden lines you would
understand this disenchant and the traps of political life:
“You may not put a foreigner over you, who is
not your brother.”
(Deut 17:15)
“You
are not the same as those who don't believe. So don't join yourselves to
them. Good and evil don't belong together. Light and darkness cannot share the
same room.” (2Co
6:14) [ERV]
You would
understand where politicians are mistaken: We
have neither the same faith nor the same Lord.
How would I
vote for a man they chose without looking at their heart first?
We are all
sinful but, if you see me breaking the laws more than you, do not imitate my
faults!
“But the
LORD said to Samuel, "Do
not look on his appearance or on the height of his stature, because I have
rejected him. For the LORD sees not as man sees: man looks on the outward appearance, but the LORD looks on the heart."” (1Sam 16:7)
How foolish
it is to vote for those you don´t even
know but their political nicknames.
Those guys surely
want to be liked by voters and once those
schemers got engaged on that temporal role, you would never meet them the way
they were: We voted to “change” an unsocial issue, to be economically promoted or
to gain an advantage in an organized situation —somewhat underhandedly.
How far is it a satisfactory distance?
It´s not
hard to understand Jehovah is very demanding. He wants you to do many
things well but –just for me- the inaudible distance is unbearable with this emptiness.
I feel it like a stumbling block I´ve found on this hollow detachment I have
perceived each time I needed Him to say few words (and they´re not those
written in a book to say “I love you”)
because I don´t feel I need to be loved,
but to be answered or attended as any child who has been seeking
his unreached Dad or dislikable Mom.
Am I the
only one asking that?
“(…) because when I called, no one answered, when I spoke, they did
not listen;
It is not
my fault that –when He willingly talked- I wasn´t there.
(…) but they did what was evil in my eyes and chose
that in which I did not delight” (Isa 66:4)
Yet I am absolutely
convicted for those
transgressions I did, to please myself.
Here is the
key I need to follow humbly, just in case I could be heard:
“(…) this is the one to whom I will look: he who is humble and remorseful in spirit and
trembles at my word.”
(Isa 66:2)
Penitent amendments
I hope He
was somewhere hidden reading this to be informed of my basic needs as an old child.
God does
not talk directly to humans for simple reasons: He is elsewhere. He shows no favoritism. He is bored and
tired of our transgressions and recurrent disobedience.
“I also will choose harsh treatment for them and bring
their fears upon them, because when I
called, no one answered, when I spoke, they did not listen; but they did what was evil in my eyes and chose that
in which I did not delight.” (Isa 66:4)
I partly “know”
these answers because I have believed the records the Israelites have had to
know why He went away, but they are neither completely abandoned nor absolutely
uncared, because God does love, particularly when He sees they have cried and
shown tears…
The moment
I read this:
“A woman does not give birth before she feels the pain.
A woman must feel the pain of
childbirth before she can see the boy she gives birth to. Who ever heard of
such a thing? In the same way, no one
ever saw a new world begin in one day. No one has ever heard of a new
nation that began in one day. But when
Zion feels the pain, she will give birth to her children.” (Isa 66:7) [ERV]
I saw prophetically the Israel we know now,
since 1948. And, the next year (2018) it would be 70 years after Zion felt that
political pain so, do you think that grownup process really ceased with a peace treaty? I have a hunch more wars
will appear! I have seen how the Palestinians use their broadcasted TV programs
–and other international mass Medias- to show Israel as their misanthropic enemy.
It´s clear this murderous feeling forgets Israelites historically participated
in that land with them before they went to Egypt starving. Yet these Arabs love
to live like those who were Philistines there (Jdg 14:11).
An exact transcript of who is who?
One thing
that could be regrettable it is that I could be writing here things that were
fallacious to be believed. It´s undesirable (and unfortunate) you had believed anything fictional I had lied with to
lure you away or to get your naïve attention. If I was honest enough, I should confess
you –as a writer- I haven´t written all the things I talked with that woman I
liked in the 1st blog I have issued under “Turning back to God”.
If you and I
had enough time and an operative “tape” recorder those things you read there
could be an exact transcript of what she and I actually said —yet those things
were self-addressed to these notes I´m sharing with you publicly. I will not
tell you where it is fictional step by step. I won´t tell I have wanted to stay
longer with her, because it´s not up to me to control anything I have received undeservedly.
My concern,
as any other man, it is that I might have been deceived “biblically”. That anything
we´ve believed was untrue: And here it is where I wished God (or His Son Yahshua)
talked to me!
As a
resource -for writing- I included few fictional elements on the things I said “she talked” when I was typing. She
certainly said words I did not mentioned, however, I invented words she never
said.
Am I lying
and sinning?
To know who is who you don´t know who I am as I
don´t know you either. Although I may not be read by any of you, I´ve tried to
share what I believed and here I hope God would catch what I think it is unsuitable
and unfortunate from what it is conventionally called “faith”.
I already
confessed I faked a portion of what I wrote about that woman I like. Writers
–to make their business- do reproduce fictions, their emotional subjectivity as
also you do at interpreting your own reality or the material read.
Have you
imagined her like this?
I don´t
know how many men (or women) have worked on the books of the Bible. However, there
have been hundreds of “exact” copies and translations and, if there were a
single “original” left, the emotional
subjectivity of each reader –and translators- would be influencing the end
result: To believe or disbelieve.
The things
I have said are not falsified, although I made believe a fictional portion of it to teach... As you would also find at
reading the book of Job!
That place
where you read “A sound perception”, about
Darwin… and about the idolatry of the lost ephods (Page 4 and ahead) where I also wrote:
“…That´s not out of your wisdom!” I tried
to be talking persuasively. In fact, it was a
self-addressed monologue —She wasn´t there with us!
Please!
Would you absolve me for telling that?
Now, if
that could be forgiven, I wish you contemplated with me this: If someone came
to tell you “the Bible has forged
portions”, made-believed spiritual lessons, will you feel an empty space like
I do?
An unknown ethereal will
I wish I
knew when men were talking to control what they have modeled in our social
demeanor, and when God really talks.
I´d beg you
could see the Bible serves to modify our social behavior through its
religion. It is NOT a bad thing! For centuries it has been a strong socio-political
element to control us, and I wish God
would deny or affirm what I said.
Since there
is no way to push Him I surrender (Psa 51:17; Isa 66:2) and notwithstanding
that, these confessed thoughts need its own timing to be absolutely yielded to
an unknown ethereal will.
If it
wasn´t that I interpret the Bible reading between lines I´ll be completely lost
on this unfixable silent:
“(…) I hid my face and was angry, but he went on backsliding in the way of his own heart.” (Isa 57:17)
Friends who
were unfriendly ceased chatting. Spouses who got annoyed ceased talking. It is
easier to hate a fiend than loving someone who often annoys. Am I right
here?
I don´t
want this job spoiled. I have spent too many hours to discourage any of you (in
case this blog or assay may be read).
This is
differently written. I reduced a long chat in portions –few fictions- because I
don´t have the memories I removed or left.
Knowing the truth
The risk we
all stepped in when we´ve met a person -by letters- is huge. We think we “know”
them for the things we´ve read, but the fact is we know them less than any
acquaintance we have poked with the scrutiny of an opened eye.
Could I
know you better for the things someone said instead of watching you?
Oh God!
Please! These remarks were read…
There were
(and there are) too many things wholeheartedly assumed or conjectured as “true”
after a lecture of the Bible. Those things we certainly read -on a piece of
paper- are believed as if they were the exact true an Author possessed or thinks of but, the moment we read the
Bible, we must realize that it is the translated COPY of countless lost ancient
copies...
There is
not one single original transcript of the original “books” and —worse than
this- it is that He is unwilling to show up to teach (and reassure) each human
being personally.
Seeing believes
If there
were public or private manifestations that revealed who He is —person to person- life could be quite different. [Yet,
the spiritual warfare we are set in is believing
to obey or distrusting to disobey]
They say: Seeing is believing
If I was in
the military service, if a Sargent or a Lieutenant wanted me to obey, he would
not show me his strong arm. Instead of that, he would talk one more
time.
I don´t
need to see or touch the glory of the Almighty! I just need a token of a conceivable friendly
approach.
Revision of thoughts
Could it be possible that the One who created
the whole universe ignored the cravings or the innermost longings of the beings
He Himself fashioned to be utterly left or ignored? [I just said this trying to explain
the perception why I find it hard to love
someone who is not attainable or approachable].
Note: For a
healthy revision of your thoughts it is better to read what the Scripture declares.
“You will
say in that day: "I praise
you, LORD! You have been angry with me, but don't be angry with me now. Show your love to me.” (Isa 12:1)
“I will not accuse my people forever. I will not
always be angry. If I continued to show my anger, then the human spirit, the life I gave them, would die before me.” (Isa 57:16) [ERV]
Two people
who love each other will come back!
“Because of
the iniquity of his unjust gain I was
angry, I struck him; I hid my face and was angry, but he went on backsliding in the
way of his own heart.” (Isa 57:17) [ESV]
I already
said I surrendered, although my reasoning stays alive…
What if I
wanted to talk to a clown? He surely had ears to dismiss me (or make me laugh).
If I wanted
to say a word to an “important” president —I could be backed off by his mediators
or agents! However, I could be warned I was getting too close…
Is this God completely omniscient?
“But I know
your sitting down and your going out and coming in, and your raging against me.” (2Ki 19:27)
“Behold, I
know your thoughts, and the devices which ye wrongfully imagine against
me.” (Job 21:27) [WoY]
“For I know their works and their thoughts; it shall come a time to gather all the nations and tongues; and they
shall come and see My glory.” (Isa 66:18)
“I know
your works, your love and faith and service and patient
endurance, and that
your latter works exceed the first.” (Rev 2:19)
But this All-knowing
God doesn´t know what I am saying —on behalf of millions of disenchanted
seekers:
·
Is
this an unfriendly act of segregation and supercilious scorn?
Psychological
facts
Perhaps you
have read that famous novel of Mary Wollstonecraft Shelley, published in 1818,
when she was around her twenties. Her central character (Dr. Frankenstein) after finishing the being he tried to create during
lengthy years, he unexpectedly realized a great psychological truth he never suspected, and here it is a brief
quotation of those words, which possibly became the feeling I think God has felt for the fallen:
“But now that I
finished, the beauty of the dream vanished, and breathless horror, and
disgust, filled my heart.”
If I told
you that young woman I liked never told me: “You don´t deserve to be more special than the world is! If the Lord
Jesus knelt, fasted and earnestly prayed during nights and days, you are not more gifted than He is.”
What would you feel? [That woman is not a literary fiction, but a fraction of
what I´ve written]
Fictional to be nonfictional
Let´s
compare two nonsensical situations, one with a woman who longs to get her 1st
baby… Once she gets pregnant, will she leave him alone as an abortive, without
pain, but abhorred and disgusted?
Now, on the
other hand and quickly, let´s imagine a young man who has another type of
long-term project: He wants to build his house abroad but, before he could be
moved into another country, he needs a passport with a visa, he needs to work
hard to buy an airplane ticket (and a
piece of land where to lay the bricks he needs as walls). Will he abandon his
homey project easily and unfinished? “…To be or not to be…” Said Shakespeare!
A grieved heart
No doubt
you would also see the divine paralleled
horror pictured in Genesis when God said —like that fiction of Dr Frankenstein:
“…I repent of
having made them.”
(Gen 6:6-7)
I can´t
compare my being with the godhead. If I desired to establish analogies or
similar references I ought to seek hominids, yet I believed He could be aware
of human´s wiring.
An unhappy separation
A person
who really cherishes -whatever he or she had cuddled with love or illusions-
would happily finish any goodhearted enterprise he/she had run (unless it was a
torn relationship that sadly needed a quick divorce and an unfortunate
separation with no turning back).
Is this our
human case?
Have we
been created –like monsters with spare parts- to be utterly left?
We´ve loved
our self-willed kids!
We endured
them, in spite of that they have failed and torn down. And we never designed
hundreds of places intended to be a getaway or a mirror of a paradise.
I know
nothing! But, to know [or love] a person who once wanted -to be loved with all our hearts, visceral strengths, clean souls or
with all the might of our sinful minds- she or he needs to show up
to reconvene, to negotiate mutual agreements, to make constructive
amendments, to talk about those things we did wrongly in a previous split
to forgive what ought to be forgiven to start anew.
Will you do
that for someone you loved? I would! Except I had to be forced into an
ecumenical Catholic movement with idolaters: Love is self-willed!
Tangible things
I still
love and miss my dad! He wasn´t the one I would have wanted when I was a
teenager, but we were friends when I was around my twenties and if I knew I
will be reunited with those I loved next life, I´m sure I have too little
things to get rid of here (although I´m not totally detached from kinsfolks and
few earthly possessions I enjoy). God Himself should give us a chance! Heavens
and a new earth are not matters ruled by our
selfish democracy. These are not
comprehensive things I had logical assurance, except I believed (and obeyed) what I´m been said with no
proof [Like that woman already said when
quoting Heb. 11]. Would I live
“next” life any better than now,
particularly when I´ve seen the next picture and the things I ate or shared.
Lack of coherence
They say “a
picture talks a lot”… I have seen what men wrote and left handwritten. I have
met a couple of actors and writers as well and, of course, I have checked the
things they previously said with written
records but –contradictorily- they have wholeheartedly neglected their
words with facts and incoherent deeds. We tend to idealize (and idolize)
anything good we´ve liked since
childhood and, the moment when we actually meet those we have had
correspondence, emails (or voice messages) that final step could be somewhat
disappointing and, painfully awful!
Only once
this life I met a woman who appeared to be better than the ones I have
imagined… When you like a person you automatically assume she or he is all you
have wanted. When you read about them you´re ignoring those things she or he
probably ignored (or deliberately hid) and, conversely, when we read about God
or a novel, we are reading about the author´s perceptions, the author´s
thoughts, schemes and their subjective
feelings, and we could be also wronged as she or he actually is: You cannot
see through my eyes! (We are all different)
If God
inspired those revered authors, what really deters Him to talk to me somehow?
If I tried
to leave this bottled emptiness, –as I´m also trying to outlive though these
words- what is the password or the key to
be utterly heard? [Statistically I have assumed I´m not read]
“I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one
comes to the Father except through me.” (Joh
14:6)
Someone has
written about Predestination (a thing
I disbelieve).
The moment
those books were opened, these lines
and thoughts will be there recorded and written (Rev 3:5; Rev 20:12, 15) as the
feelings I´ve got to dismay: God is
real!
As the love
or the air I have breathed in, without seen it [and I hope He has read my tough choice].
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