Turning
back to God (Part
one)
I wish I
had had breakfast at home. Before I entered the cybercafé I overheard an ambulant street seller offering a stick memory a couple of teenagers who
left that shop I came to check my emails. I approached to ask that man a
confirmation of what I had listened and then I read on the packet, and vaguely
saw its content.
-This isn´t
a stick memory –I said- but a card reader instead.
-How do you
know it? –the man asked doubtful.
-I know it
because I read those words in English! –I replied, pointing at them.
Meanwhile I
checked one of the two packages he had, that man quickly added trying to
convince me.
-I´m
selling it low-priced because someone sold them to me in a good bargain. He
stole them at the place where he works and that´s way you could have one too
cheap now.
-They only
serve to read SD card memories; yet they could function as a stick memory if they had inside one of those SD
cards mobile telephones use as a backup…
As soon as
I could, I separated from him to walk my way. I said nothing else avoiding discouraging
that spontaneous “honest” transparency that man showed at telling me he was hawking with anything stolen. If he
lied to lure me to buy, he plainly lied then. If it wasn´t a “business”
confession, but a naïve granted revelation of the things I don´t like to be
cursed (from the people I can´t like) I won´t be screwed up in their own faults
and, if I had enough money to buy me useful things, do you think I would buy
stolen goods instead of the food I need daily?
I have been
there! I coveted and stole. I envied and robbed, but I don´t want the rest of
my life damned at any corner I would walk. (Deut. 28:16)
At this
time I´m proud of nothing. I have lived enough and if I could live any longer I
wish the world could be quickly changed to be better and, in the underground,
it is actually changing.
I have
stubbornly wanted God (Hashem) talked to me audibly, however He has sovereignly
desired to talk to me with unworkable examples, with living deeds and not with
an uttered voice I heard (I could be scared). These days I have fought against
my own life, dreams, and against this human stubbornness I mentioned during a lengthy
process to understand this is tiresome and frustrating: I can´t add an inch to
my stature! (Mat 6:27). I am fed when no food is left. I am helped when no hope
looked around, as if I was forced to depend on Him when all my disadvantaged resources
seem exhausted or blocked by the sociopolitical hindrances you´ll find in the dull
environment of a communist country.
Unexpected replies
Two days
ago I met a young lady I have liked at first sight several years ago. Perhaps
you are able to have your own hunches and a particular discernment to know -or
guess- who the people are. I always have seen her too far from my reach, too
far from my personal self-imposed limits, so I have looked at that woman at a prudent
emotional distance.
That day she
was not the same I used to see almost open-mouthed. As a matter of facts, I can
assure I´m not the only man who stared at her jawed: She looked like a model,
and now she is modeled by God.
Nothing to brag about
I´m not
fond of fasting –I left those religious practices- and these days I´m obliged (or
forced) to fast. Trying to understand the things I´m witnessing (or guessing) the
moment I met that ambulant street seller mentioned above I lacked the money to
buy food, but I believed I needed to check my email account to see if a profitable
answer had arrived to work on but, when you fast unexpected answers (or temptations)
come as you would walk off your feet sometimes. I´m thankful God permitted me
to discern that man was hawking dishonestly.
If I was that fool, if I had enough money and the compulsive need to buy stolen
things I would have failed like any sinner. And here there´s nothing to boast! There is nothing to brag religiously on
these lines but the intention to leave a written record of the things I tend to
forget or do, because if I had fallen in buying stole things, unpredictable consequences might have
reached me as curses I do know: “…with
the measure you use, it will be measured to you, and still more will be added
to you.” (Mark 4:24).
Why am I so blind to see the wages of sin? (Rom 6:23)
Conversely, before I came in to check my
emails, I did a simple good thing for a friend and -soon after that- God helped
me to find a quick free transportation to reach the nearest town where I met
this young girl I did not plan to seek. Here it is not easy to get public transportation
and, when you don´t have enough money, you can´t even think of buying the food
you need: A loaf of bread costs 1.200 Bs,
a bus ride 300 Bs, and half an hour using a computer worth 250 Bs.
I have
spent hours to arrive into the nearest town! Usually when I get bored at the
bus stop, I choose to walk instead of feeling I have been missed out by any driver
who hasn’t noticed me asking for a lift. Generally, I have spent more than two
hours walking down a wavy road of 13 kilometers long, but nowadays that trip is
risky for the unseen robbers that may appear, under a sun I don´t like…
It was a decision to change
I didn´t
ask her name! I won´t tell you I got unrealistic wings to fly up and down and
to fall in love again. However, if I liked her for being as I like, now I like her
for allowing God to change any visible flaw she had in the former character of her
guiltless presumptuous self: Too many
people had compared her with Cleopatra! She had more fans than she thought
she could...
The moment
I left the street dealer I walked a couple of blocks down out of the town. I
passed in front of the high school where my daughter studies and then tried to
see if she was also there. In front of me, few meters ahead on the right sidewalk,
there was a little boy held by the hand of a petite black-haired woman. She
looked like a Peruvian woman lifting some plastic bags, wearing a colorful red dress
and, until the moment I looked at her curvy legs the wrong way (Mat 5:28) I had
no idea who she was. I passed next –side by side- and, as soon as I checked her
face, I knew how wrong I was...
-Hello! –I
said, viscerally choked in surprised.
She kindly
replied to my greetings detachedly (we´re not friends, and we never were). I
wasn´t sure enough she was the one I thought, so I said few words to reconfirm
I was not wronged or too confused.
She was not
hypocritical neither effusive. I did insisted to know what had happened to get
that new look, because any
shortsighted there could also appreciate the innermost change that amazed me.
While we
sat nearby in a park where her son played, I asked her about those pictures she
had had, along with all those things she could have had as an altar of that lost
alter ego.
-I burnt
them all! –it was her keen answer- The 80 medals I have got fighting, I’ve gotten
rid of too. Anything I vainly had to presume or brag I was someone above all, I removed out of my life to please and adore the
only One who deserves glory and personal cult.
I wish you
had heard all the things she really said. As you can infer, she did what Shaul
Paul did:
“But these things which were once a gain to me, I have
counted a loss for the sake of Messiah… I
have suffered the loss of all things and count them to be trash…” (Php 3:7-8)
And I was
sat next to someone I would not have reached unless God had worked in her mind to
change her soul.
-If I was
the other person you had seen before –she added- do you think I would be here
talking to you, Sir?
-Of course
not! –I replied instantly, marveled and watching her fearless eyes- I always
saw you too high and far from me. I acknowledged those inferable limits you
probably have set for yourself and, since now it is evident you have changed from the inside out I insisted you
would tell me what have happened, that you aren´t that overconfident Doll
anymore.
-I do pray
that God spares me, Sir. I have to be careful since this is an undeserved miracle and I must be
responsible enough to keep Him in my heart.
-Sure you
will but, please! Do not tell me “Sir” (She
was using another Spanish word too close to “Lord”) because I think that adjective
should be only used just to appeal to the Lord Jesus. Instead –I asked- tell my
name or label me any other way, as “brother”. I´m aware I´m older than you! But
I´m ashamed you called me using that word I don´t feel it should be used for any
men, lest we be a high minded “noblemen”.
A sound perception
Meanwhile
we shared several thoughts and impressions; I told her I had vainly asked God
talked to me audibly, that -after that day- I understood He sovereignly chose
to talk to me with circumstances or deeds, and that she is one of those
livid signs I´ve been seeking!
-Perhaps
you have read a book you don´t believe. Don´t get me wrong, please, I´m not
judging you, but it is my imprecise appreciation –she said- Instead, let´s
agree on what it is said: “Faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.” (Heb 11:1) Do you believe in the
Lord Jesus?
-Yes! I
believe in His historicity –I replied, while taking care of her son- but He
hasn´t given me a verbal proof that
assures me I am not lied as I have been wronged by too many people before. For
example, if I was told you became a Christian –not witnessing it myself - I would
have said “Oh! That´s okay” but now
that I see how much you´ve changed (from the inside out) I have a sound
perception of the things I would have heard spoken or vaguely written. Each
time I translated an article or a book into Spanish, I had to interpolate several
thoughts to clarify what weren´t inside the original source. How do I know the
Bible is an exact textual copy of the originals?
-Hmm! I am
afraid you have been hurt –she assumed.
-Of course!
It is as any child believing in X-mas, the moment you get your Dad or Mom
placing those gifts under the Christmas tree, you would acknowledge the deception
in that traditional and that surely happened to me: Jesus wasn´t born on that
day! So I didn´t lie to my kids, because I cannot sell anything I haven’t tried,
used or known.
-So, do you
believe in the evolutionist theory of Darwin?
-When I was
a child I believed it! But I see it lengthy and foolish now. I had a thick
green book -with yellow pages- my dad owned. I studied it thinking I understood the secrets of life and all
that could be inferred from that Darwinian
Evolution, but I got bored of reading theories from old books where I
couldn´t get an actual miracle as a proof. I won´t tell I wanted to see dead were
made alive or a blind was healed and turned to see. My biblical doubts were around –as for brief examples- at those spiritual manifestations I haven´t seen
or as when King David could have consulted God before he went to fight and he
received short-term directions, when Israelites have an ephod. I wish I had an ephod to know what to do!
-That´s
fine! –she said with her sight lost- But, the problem with an advantageous thing
like that, it is the idolatry you could be facing with an ephod, as all
Israelites were… Will you use it to help all
people instead of you alone? Let me show you where you´re confused!
She opened
her Bible to show me this:
“Gideon used the gold to make an ephod, which he put in his hometown, the town called Ophrah. All
the Israelites worshiped the ephod. In this way the Israelites were not
faithful to God--they worshiped the ephod. The ephod became a trap that caused
Gideon and his family to sin.” (Jdg 8:27) [ERV]
She
explained me that thing better than I could write you about...
-Just think
if they had the lost Ark of the Covenant
now and those holy priests ministering with their talkative ephods —simply imagine they actually received that personal
attention they got once when they were the irreplaceable “chosen ones”… Do you think God will bless with favors a single sinful nation against the others,
where its individuals disobey and obey? Not on the disordered world we live! He
said He would exalt and bless all the nations proceeding from Abraham´s faith
and lineage (Gen 22:18). In a nutshell, He
has chosen those who really obey and believed Him and His Son.
-Ok! –I
agreed- I´ve been stubbornly entangled in the
private convenience of having the Aladdin’s genie, yet I don´t need an
ephod to worship it as Catholics adore their Holy Wafer. An ephod won´t be set in a polished metallic reliquary
or at the top of a golden shrine I needed to boast. I just wanted Him spoke to
me the way you talked, to feel it was a
relationship, to be assured and spared of more failures! But I can´t tell Him
what to do.
-Sure! The Israelites
bragged a lot with the Ark (Jos 3:6, 3:13, 17; 1Sam 4:5-6). Gideon never
thought (that something like that) would ever happen –she told me back- He had
another good idea, yet his folks made an
idol with it. Just for three minutes think of this: “If you had an ephod, one
divine telephone that served you to
know what to do —as if you had made a regular
prayer or a devote consultation with God- do you think you would keep
it as a hidden secret? No! You would check it daily instead of Him, as you did with that computer you used today. If
it tells you the future or the things
that are going to happen, will you bet in the lottery or in any form of gambling
to get easy money?” You don´t deserve to
be more special than the world is! If the Lord Jesus knelt, fasted and
earnestly prayed during nights and days, you
are not more gifted than He is.
-Wow! –I
exhaled, shocked and surprised- You´re not hypocritical neither effusive when
you talked. I have read the Bible, but I never understood it in that way... How
long did it take you to know that?
- Approximately,
few hours! But I know nothing about you.
-What! –I
said laughing- I think I have wasted 20 years reading the Bible without that remarkable
insight you showed.
-Hmm! –she
thought, and then said- Remarkable it would be that you and the whole world
knew that they cannot run with the hare
and hunt with the hounds. If you had such a means of divine talk the rest of the world remained unfairly handicapped and
possibly lost. God shows no preferentialism!
That is why the Bible may serve to give all us spiritual guidance. Ask His Holy
Spirit to understand it!
-I agree
with what God is telling me through you —That´s
not out of your wisdom! And now I know you won´t be offended if I gave the
due credit to the One who is using your mouth to teach me.
We spent
more time chatting together (by that time I took care of her child in a fancy yellow
rocking chair I pushed). Tired and assured, I told her I would not ask Him
–again- a word when He evidently had chosen another way to speak [with facts or
actions] which –by the way- last much more than audible words I could quickly
misunderstand… And it is useless I said she was also a renowned karate athlete
who humbled herself to please the God she wholeheartedly believes now.
I´m
unwilling to write more about her just to shun
the mistake of exalting her, making another sexual idol, the one she was years
ago as I realized.
-Well, I
stayed here because I felt God had something to do with this unplanned meeting
–She clarified- but I have to go.
-Sure! –I
agreed- We never met and I´m happy I could witness this miracle first hand.
The moment
I gave her back those bags I´ve been carrying to help her, she offered me her
right hand for a shake, just when I was almost gone.
-Thanks for
this time, amigo. I think I have spent too much time from you.
-Just the
contrary! –I said, understanding- It was me the one who seized you and your kid´s
time, to be tagged along talking as if I belonged to you.
A strange thing
How come
would I have imagined that time shared? I would be lying to these notes if I
hid I have sighed when I reread these words, few minutes back. It was a warm
and nice exhalation... Although -in fact- I´m seriously trying to forget that I
saw or met her recently… I just need auto medication against this remaining visceral
anxiety and –if I really wanted to be cured of further emotional strings and romantic
cultism- I could see in my mind her teeth are not the same I used to see, that
she has two kids to care for now and, more important than those thoughtless things
I could get as physical handicaps to
hide myself inside those fears of rejection, I could look back at the
things I sensed when she was high minded, younger, when she looked excessively forward,
self-poised as I told her my daughter presently is.
-Whatever
thing we uttered, it will be or comes to be true -I remembered she told me
clearly- because in the mouth there is enough power to lift or destroy… Each
person should be coherent with their saying and doing.
When she
said that, I heard my soul jumping like a happy sucker!
A foolish heart
It was easy
to know she has no telephone. I could guess she was alone the way I heard she randomly
works —although I didn´t ask directly if she was engaged or married. But more
than fearing I could be rejected emotionally, for me it was the moment when I
heard she attends a church led by Soto Mayor... If she was Catholic I would
understand it easily but, if she has grown up so quickly in that way, how come
she became a fanatic member of a cultic group?
-I
understand you might like Coca Cola
instead of Pepsi cola —as I already
told her, before I left- Your likes aren´t mine and mine aren´t yours. I´m
aware Jesus said He would be “where two or three were present in His name” (Mat.
18:20) And after that, who am I to say you are wrong or right? I don´t see Soto
Mayor as the angel —or chosen messenger- he says he is [I looked at her black
eyes deeply to grasp her inner thoughts] but you believe what you believed.
I was losing
my faith. I thought there wasn’t a concrete thing that would bless me for doing
something good. I just considered Jesus at healing a reluctant man who later on
betrayed Him (Joh 5:15) or the type of family members Joseph had (Gen 37:5) to
be hated the most… Before any of them gained a better position or a fresher spiritual
knowledge, they endured those tests I wish bypassed. Joseph became the 2nd
to command the Egyptians painstakingly and emotionally abused. David became a
king enduring a long period of 14 years running and hiding from harassments, as
also the Lord Jesus has suffered the untold to finally rule over those who
accepted Him in His messiahship: No pain no gain!
Recently,
one friend in Europe challenged me to trust God no matter what... When I read
her -to a small degree- she had said “It
doesn´t matter what it is happening around you, but inside you”. She also said “Don´t try to lead or master Him! Instead of that, you haven´t realized
yet you are His unsubordinated striver.” All she said sounded like I should
trust God unconditionally, even to the point of death... Once I understood all
these things, I stared in revulsive and disordered doubts!
I thought, “Is
that the God she believes in?” Anything she said at that moment seemed too
weird and undesirable to me. How come would I do that? I´m so used to look at the
convenience of comfort zones or satisfactory circumstances.
“I do not permit a woman to teach or to
exercise authority over a man; rather, she is to remain quiet.”
She is a
keen foreign lawyer and, I purposely mentioned certain words of Paul´s letters
(1Tim 2:12) to poke her new Jewish approach (or beliefs).
-I am not a
Christian anymore! –She suddenly said.
-I know it!
–I said laughing- I just wanted to know if all converted Jews there would think
like Shaul Paul did.
-The first
time I entered Israel´s main airport passageway –she said- I read a big
announce saying: “Don´t think you are the
only smart person in the world, in Israel we all are smart.” (I know she
said it differently, but I´m quoting it from a weak and ravenous memory).
-I agree
with you –I said quickly reconvening- Your friend Mary Wollstonecraft
(1759-1797) would also back up you if she was alive… Chauvinism and Egocentrism
are both extremist ideological foolishness, but all what you´ve said is not
easy to digest now and -this as a bulk- it´s not enjoyable to be endured up to
death... Besides of what has been previously said, it is foolish to think a
woman does nothing good for herself or others and, as I have pondered before as
a creed, some weak Pauline thoughts do not show me clearly she is legally
hindered to teach men.
-Did you
know that woman was also a school teacher and a translator? As an author in
1792 –she added- she wrote that “the
ideal matrimony should be setup under intellectual affinities” and, she
also fought for equal educative rights and, for promoting those radical ideas,
she was banned by many men.
-I´ve heard
she was smart –I told back- But I wish I knew why she tried to commit suicide
when her husband Gilbert Imlay left her…
Regarding
Paul´s apparent bigotry (simply spurred by the syncretism of Catholics translators
and teachers) I wish I had mentioned Rahab´s or Caleb´s faithful services. “Did
he read the book of Esther (Est 7:6) or the spiritual teachings I´ve perceived
from the gentile Ruth (Rth 1:16-17, 20-21)?” In fact, women are the first
teachers all men (and ladies) had [at home] before we went to formal schools:
They tenderly embraced me before I knew how to hold a person in adult love.
They kissed me with cares and dearest attentions before I knew those things had
to be shared in life, and treasured for a doubtful eternity…
START UP
A couple of
days after being threatened with such mental challenge I remained reluctant for
any exercise of faith I ought to endure (same way many people have doubted they
would ever be in a tough situation, after witnessing themselves everything had
turned to be worse).
An umpteen-handed faith: My foolish allegation.
The mental
cliché I had to deal with was “God loves
and He is always kind”. I had missed childishly this world is a big school
where we would be tested daily —liked or not- and, instead of that, I had
chosen I would enjoy life the way I’d be pleased. I had forgotten this is not
the real life! In fact, I see how satanic this chaos is now. Does a doctor need
you to be sick to bring his food home? Did a mechanic long for your car engine
failed to get the money he needs? Service
should be my life’s target and not being served with the needs of other guys.
The more I think of the mundane reward
system and of the worldly economic system;
I think there is something ungodly and wrong: Do I have to kill to eat? Do animals
need to prey or to be preyed by any flesh? (Isa 11:6) That simply contradicts the original plan to be vegetarians (Gen
2:16) until the time came to tell us: “You shall not murder.”(Deut 5:17, Exo 23:7) (Yet, I agree the world does not seem to be
always seen as the Bible seems to be saying it is).
A personal crisis
is not sought! No one wants to lose his religious faith or personal background
unless he thinks that could be superseded [or improved] by the beliefs I have
got or heard with own personal
experiences I thought that were superior to any umpteen-handed faith I had believed before but, as a matter of
facts, with this delayed and unwanted struggle I´m now immersed, I also think
these opinions will fail to meet God for myself: I have argued too many times
God talked personally to any members of human race, and being here –in a
communist country I don´t like- where Chauvinism is one of the 1st
elements of their systemic political
idolatry, I don´t know what I´m fighting for or against:
·
Could
this unpredictable fight be utterly postponed, since I don´t like being tested?
·
Did
I want a country -or people- sinning and fighting like these?
Whatever
the answer might be for someone who decisively is shrinking back for a quick
withdrawal, here is a question I leave, as it could be rendered or endorsed to
any of you: “Will you love God, whatever the test He sets you for?”
Liked or
not! He has decided to try each
of us, just to get what we have deep inside:
“…and there He tested them.” (Exo 15:25) [ESV]
”But He knows the way with me. When I am tried,
I shall come forth as gold.” (Job 23:10) [HRB]
“Because you kept the Word of My patience, I also will
keep you out of the hour of trial which is going to come upon the
entire world in order to try those dwelling on the earth.” (Rev 3:10)
No religious upbringing
I have
thought that if I knew Jesus Christ personally, my emotional background would
be set in a sound Christian frame and needless it´s to say that I have ignored
the 1st commandment dishonoring Him: “Love
your God above everything”… But am I lied? Yet there were hundreds who met
Him personally in Israel and they turned back to do what they thought best and,
besides of that, I should keep in mind what Judas did. Hasn’t he seen what
Jesus performed? Didn’t he hear what Jesus taught coherently a couple of years?
I could see God myself making a miracle and, with similar blinded distrust, I
could deny -at once- what I saw with my own eyes.
Given that
Jesus is not God the Almighty One —but just His only begotten Son- it should be
read what the O.T. and the N.T. have said, just to see if I can grasp a clear
idea of the biblical meaning:
“And you shall love YAHWEH your Elohim with all your
heart, and with all your soul, and with all your might.” (Deut 6:5) [HRB]
“And
Yahshua answered him, the first of all the commandments is: "Hear Israel. YAHWEH our Elohim is YAHWEH echad
(united) and you shall love YAHWEH your Elohim with all your heart, and with
all your soul and with all your mind, and with all your strength." This is the first
commandment. (Deut. 6:4, 5)” (Mark 12:29-30) [HRB]
How could I
love a person I don´t know, when I´ve found no way to meet or talk to Him?
It should
not be done by simple hearing! It could be done by his/her deeds.
Uncomplicated assurance
We have
believed all the books we´ve read. We have believed several versions of
contemporary (biased) history as well as vamp rose novels. I also think I have
loved Emily Brontë foolishly. The way I see “she” wrote several ideas have
moved me. I don´t know how many times her works were proofread, how many times
she or an editor modified her
original job and, besides, I NEVER met her by reading her words or books. Someone
has said she was a mystic, but I won´t read her books twice to find those faults,
particular when I´ve kept the idea I liked her and, if I went beyond, I could
idolize someone who die, like I´m dying daily. How come would you demand or ask
absolute love without showing who you
are physically and personally? [I hope God be willing to read my mind and this
shortcoming]
Two-timing hearts vs. a spiritual courtship
Another
important thing connected to bottomless love is making an interactive regular correspondence, born of mutual attraction and, regardless of the type of love God demanded —involving
the heart, the soul, the strength
and the mind- you probably would
have loved another person viscerally for the way she (or he) smelled, the shape
she had, the manners she has shown at laughing or evenly the calligraphy of her
styled handwriting.
Of course, that
type of spiritual courtship is not
related to a nuptial vow, but it certainly involves our minds and the fidelity of our unfaithful hearts and, to me, that surely means filial affection. No one would ever say arbitrarily —and with
intimidating cold-bloodedness: Love me, because I want you to love me. Would
you?
The way you
love (or loved) your parents is not the same you showed [or felt] when
loving any of your cohorts but, the more I see how God wants to be loved I´m convinced He could have used a word
involving our visceral guts to mean what He actually said using four words I
already mentioned: the heart, the soul, the strength and the mind.
Some people have used the Greek words “Agapao” or
“Phileo” to explain such kind of love, but the original source for that commandment was Hebrew or Aramaic,
and not the hedonist Romanic Greek:
Have you read
He wants to be loved viscerally and with all your strength?
By what about the human process of a quixotic
flirting, the progressive idealistic/romantic ceremonious wooing?
He is not
negotiating it, He wants it all.
Those who knew
(or met) Him by name knew how endurable it was to love or befriending Him but,
where is He now?
I have read He
turned back (home) until the time I really changed…
I loved my dad,
but I also disliked several things in him and, few months before he died, I got
upset for a thing I think he did wrong and I never came back to visit him,
except to lift his coffin to the cemetery with my relatives.
I loved my mom.
I thought she was the most beautiful woman there was in the world and, when I
grew as a child, that feeling changed and, as I can assure you now, that love I
had is not the same I have now. Just because she is not the person I thought she was. How do I know the God I´m
reading in the Bible is the One someone else says on that umpteen-handed faith?
Spiritual parenthood rather than religious
Have you seen
why Catholics call their priests “fathers”?
Have you
checked why they call their nuns or ministers “mothers”?
We long for ideal relationships!
Yet Catholics
ignore what Jesus said in Mat 23:9 regarding that spiritual fatherhood we´ve missed, which it shouldn´t be based on ethnicity or cultural religious background,
as it is actually discouraged as a means of self-confidence when Jesus spoke to
Jews (Mat 3:9) or to disobedient
believers calling Him “Lord! Lord!”
(Mat 7:21)
Most of the
families I have seen have a lethal flaw [I´m also a stain in the one I had]
and, society provides certain forms of “parental” religions to cope with the
homey emptiness and to “heal” the burden of faulty families. You are my
“brother” or “sister” if you have believed what I have believed…
What type of family love you have or have had?
What´s your
emotional background to discern you loved, liked or sexually used those
you said you honestly cherished as persons?
Venezuela
and several other countries in the world are being punished by the accumulation
of their undone sins. In general, sins are punished individually (Jer
31:30, Eze 18:4, Eze 18:14-17, 20) but when one person agrees or an organized institution
or group backs up a transgression or when someone else does not correct or reproached what it is done unlawfully (Eze
3:19, 21, Eze 23:28, 30) the whole nation will be punished...
I never thought that could be possible!
Someone
showed me the type of curses we are enduring for idolatry. Here it is the reason
why I am being coursed with them too:
“You'll
be cursed if you disobey the commands of the LORD your God, if you turn
from the way I'm commanding you to live today, and if you worship other gods
you never knew.” (Deu 11:28) [GW]
For more
than 400 years God permitted Israel were enslaved in Egypt to serve idols and
stones. A social race was punished for the idolatry and disobedience they
stubbornly showed. Where was the divine consultation —or prayers- they made when
starving? They heard the voice of what looked logic, desirable and convenient (Gen 45:18-19) and moved on to accomplish
those dreams Joseph had.
Perhaps we
have wrongly believed God only chose the few Jews He picked, but He clearly
told Abraham “…and in your
offspring shall all the nations of the earth be blessed, because you have obeyed my voice.” (Gen 22:18). It is inferable that
if God was thinking to bless the whole world,
He also planned to rule it, yet there were practical conditions: “The same rule applies to every one of you. It makes
no difference whether you are a foreigner or an Israelite, because I am the
LORD your God.”
(Lev 24:22)
Again it
says: “This means that
you must follow the same laws and the same rules. These laws and rules
are for you Israelites and for the other people who are living among you.” (Num 15:16) [ERV]
Those
international blessings would ONLY come if we are obedient to Him, every place
we are or could be culturally if we obeyed:
“And the LORD
will make you the head and not the tail…”
“You will
always be at the top, never at the
bottom…”
“if you obey the commandments of the
LORD your God. ”
(Deu 28:13)
After 1444,
Portugal traded with enslaved black people in Europe. Later on Spain did the
same in America for more than 400 years, as Arabs merchants has done elsewhere.
Africans and Spaniards intermingled with the local idolatry they encountered in
America and this is punished everywhere you go until you see one law and
one knowledge of it and –in Venezuela- I see the political idolatry many Jews also longed for: “I will set a king over me, like all the nations that
are around me.” (Deut
17:14). Yet these chose a foreigner, one who was formed from two Colombians,
one who doesn´t obey the Torah or a holy code to rule a country he does not
deserve...
“You may not put a foreigner over you, who is
not your brother.”
(Deut 17:15)
How come
this scarcity and connected social crimes won´t be seen or suffered up to its
final day?
“Like the nations that the LORD makes to perish before
you, so shall you perish, because
you would not obey the voice of the LORD your God.” (Deut 8:20)
The more a
country separates from God He will accomplish His final will, seeking
repentance and a change.
This
country gave another label to its name. This State is changed into the idolatry
of both Simon Bolívar and Hugo Chávez and, because of him, you now read he call
it “The Bolivarian Republic of
Venezuela”. That is cultism! And
what a shame! Chauvinism and the cult of personalities is idolatry. Did
Bolívar fought all alone to set this
country “free” from the Spaniards and the foreign consecutive exploitations? Politics
do businesses as Simon Bolívar betrayed Francisco de Miranda...
Bolívar was
a rich man -having lands and slaves- who also wanted to be a Hispanic nobleman
aristocratically. He felt undermined as Adolf Hitler also felt and in history he
seized the chance to rule and get sociopolitical
economic benefits as also communists do here now... But these Venezuelan citizens are blinded with the
possibility of having an extended bite over the bureaucratic monetary cake.
Each time I
sought my convenience —instead of a holy love- I missed God´s plans for human
beings. It is not that I wanted to rule your minds or the thoughts of those
folks I don´t like, it is that I´m
thinking selfishly I was part of other nation not linked to political
groups. In fact, I hate being ruled!